Below are the 10 most recent journal entries recorded in so you got in a kind of trouble nobody knows' LiveJournal:

Sunday, August 12th, 2007
1:56 pm	Does anybody want to buy these tickets from me? I have two tickets to the Endfest but I can't go. Endfest 16 North Stadium Lot Qwest Field, Seattle, WA Sat, Sep 22, 2007 12:00 PM Smashing Pumpkins, Social Distortion, Bright Eyes, Satellite Party, The Used, Hot Hot Heat, Straylight Run, Paramore, Shiny Toy Guns, Minus The Bear, Moneta, End-A-Roke For both tickets with all the handling fees and everything it cost me $109 but I'll sell them for a little less if I have to. Please spread the word to anybody/everybody. Just reply to this entry, or email: dontworrybehappy4@hotmail.com (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 31st, 2006
8:14 am	So lately there has been too much un-explained/understood/controlled emotions. With too great a lack of enthusiasm for doing anything (reading, writing, eating--all those essentials in life), yet always feeling busy or overwhelmed or rundown. Always keeping busy simply to avoid feeling unproductive, wasteful, useless, but still managing to have nothing to show, no accomplishment(or feeling of). In short, breakdowns are a drag. (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 20th, 2006
8:24 pm	So I guess there's a show saturday, 5-10 at starker arts park with akbar and some other bands. Anyone else (grace?) know if they're going? I work saturday, but I'm going to try to go afterwards. p.s. Some swimming with everyboday should be arranged, most likely at the Mary's and we'll all just pretend like it's not polluted. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, July 17th, 2006
5:56 pm	So I feel as if I should try to pretend like I have a journal again, and actually update in it. It's just that every time that I thought I would update I would realize that it's been so long since my last update that there is just way too much time to try to cover and the thought of trying to sum everything up was too overwhelming (even though I feel as if I've really done nothing this summer), so I just didn't bother. So I figure I'll just ease back into it and start with some sort of brief summary of my summer. Basically, it hasn't felt too much like a summer, I mean, I haven't really gone anywhere or done anything exciting. I was babysitting these two kids but thankfully I got out of that, so I just work at my dad's store, and cook, a lot, because I love to. For some reason, I can't ever really sleep. On my good nights I'll sleep from 2-9 with waking up for about 15 minutes at every hour. Last night I slept about 3 hours. Not sure what it's all about really. I think I think too much and it keeps me awake. I took some of my mom's insomnia medication that knocks her out, and it had no effect on me unfortunately. I don't know, I seem to be functioning none the less. I do have dreams sometimes though, about one certain person, it's odd, apparently I think about this person a lot subconsciously or something. On another note, Sonja is gone, which is very upsetting, but Natalie is visiting from july 29th-aug 5 and we plan to go to portland and possibly see a band play up there who are from houston(where natalie lives). So that is all very exciting. Katie is also leaving for estonia on aug 5 for a year, so I feel very obliged to spend time with her, which will be so difficult considering the timing. Davinci days was just kind of blah, except for road to ruin playing/winning, and I saw someone I hadn't seen in a very long time. Mostly I just read, which I hadn't had any time for so far in summer. I'm finally finishing Steppenwolf by Hermann Hesse, and then I plan to read some more books by Milan Kundera (the author of "The Unbearable Lightness of Being"), which I read last summer and loved. I would really like to go to Seattle sometime, really I just want to go anywhere I think. Well I suppose I'll end it here, I'm sure I could babble for quite some time, but it would most likely turn into me complaining, and I'd rather not go into that. (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 28th, 2006
4:33 pm	Alternative Prom 06 ...the summer is near (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 8th, 2006
5:01 pm	So lets pretend like I haven't not updated in way too long. I'm done with the SATs and AP US history test(although there's still a final for the class and a project) so maybe I'll start having a life again. It is getting near summer and my moods always seem to get better when it's nice out. We'll see. Speaking of summer, I want to cut my hair, but I don't really know how I want it yet. Any ideas? please. I mean I have a general idea but no pictures or magazines to look through. I still want it fairly long in the front but shorter at least in the back and low maintenance in general. maybe choppy/uneven if I could get that to work. I don't know. some dumpster diving at the recycling place is in need. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 17th, 2006
7:11 pm	I don't feel like putting a lot of effort into this entry, and I've been meaning to update far too many times but instead have just been writing in my normal journal. I had a weird dream the other night. It involved a boy who I've never said a word to/don't even know his name. I've really only seen him at a glance, never really have met eyes either, I think that'd be far too intense. It was a very 'wouldn't it all be perfect dream' that was way too unrealistic. Anyway I'm not really motivated to explain/explore, but I do wish I could understand reasons for why I dream what I dream. and why they couldn't be true. enough. Bright Eyes-A Line Allows Progress, A Circle Does Not "sitting around, no work today try pacing to keep awake laying around, no school today just drink until the clock has circled all the way it is late afternoon as you walk through the rooms of a house that is quiet except for unanswered telephones you stand near the sink while you're mixing a drink you think you don't want to pass out where your roommates will find you again stumble around the neighborhood with nothing to do you're always looking for something to sniff, smoke, or swallow calling over next door to see what they got but you would settle for anything that would make your brain slow down or stop break this circle of thoughts you chase before they catch back up with you and your parents noticed your thinning face, all the weight you lost all the weight you are losing you said, "i'm done feeling like a skeleton no more sleep walking dead" you're going to wake from this coma you're going to crawl from this bed you have made and stop counting on that camera that hangs round your neck because it won't ever remember what you choose to forget as you try to find some source of light try to name one thing you like you used to have such a longer list and light you never had to look for it but now it's so easy to second guess everything you do until all you want is to finish this half empty glass before the ice melts away this feeling used to pass but seems like it's every day and every night now" I really hope France makes me feel alive again, or at least the pretending will amount to the point that I believe it. (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 16th, 2005
6:38 pm	ne t'en fais pas---don't worry yourself(over it) "drink up, baby, stay up all night the things you could do, you won't but you might the potential you'll be, that you'll never see the promises you'll only make drink up with me now and forget all about the pressure of days do what I say and I'll make you okay and drive them away the images stuck in your head" (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 15th, 2005
6:49 pm	I was thinking, maybe I could just vanish, without a trace, move away, leave everything behind. See some new faces and new buildings and streets. Hear some different voices, start completely fresh. Somewhere where no one knows who I am and maybe I can forget my past/present day life. I think it's as close to a new life as I can get. Throwing away all my responsibilites sounds good. To mix in some reality here, maybe I just want to because I can't. Restrictions=wants and then exageration comes into play. I very well could hate my life so much more somewhere else, completely alone. But something about it is so alluring. The mystery and the possibilities make it sound so wonderful. guilt, guilt, guilt---I couldn't leave my mom, not in this situation, not yet. I suppose I have to wait until I'm done with highschool anyway, as long as that it. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, November 11th, 2005
6:45 pm	sometimes I just feel like there's really no push, no force, no reason to do anything at all. like I just want to curl up and shrink until I'm not there anymore. maybe just lay and listen to the rain falling. put on some warm socks and dream of being something else. maybe the leaf that floats away in the wind rather than turning into the muddy slugde that slowely makes its way down the gutter. can't I just clear my head of everything. leave everything behind. dim the piercing light a little. just leave the stiffness of my body and find comfort in the suns rays or warm water somewhere far away. It's too hard to find comfort in this life, some steady emotions. that feeling of harmony, where things are flowing together. somedays the resistance just gets too rough. something's got to change. p.s. dear me, please be less pathetic. (3 Comments |Comment on this)